Hi. It’s been a while.
Before I start getting myself swamped in all these editing work I kept complaining about, let me share to you some thoughts for my mid-year.
It has been six months since I left my corporate life, and probably the best decision I’ve made so far. While I can say the world had been a quite forgiving and supportive of my shortcomings as an independent worker, I needed to work double and even 3x to live comfortably and at least buy the things that I want. A single day of not doing anything would result to 3 or more days of working, even losing sleep.
Honestly it feels like stepping fresh out of college. For most who do not know, 2017 was the time I finally had my youth back. And it’s just too amazing looking back how I managed to get myself together in spite being poorly compensated while I work excessively. I can’t imagine how I was able to send Frenz to a good university when I was paying two times higher than what I was getting. I never saw myself going to places and being back to those I’ve only been seeing in magazines. I must have done something good to be able to experience the lows and mostly highs of this life.
I’ve always thought I was a strong girl since day one. Moving to places without any plans, being bullied and rejected by those who have only seen the surface, and the betrayal of trust by those who I have thought would help us in tough times — they gave me the tenacity to go through life with all the battle scars I’m most proud to show off.
This year, I am using all those past experiences to help me look forward with positivity and enthusiasm. To be honest, I have no idea if I’m doing things right or if I’m on the right track. But great things are slowly happening one by one. Everything I once gave up are coming back to me ten-fold. Those things I needed to set aside will finally have some time alloted for them.
Life will always be full of trials, but at this point, I have accepted that most of them are not bound to last forever. There’s always an end to a start. A springtime after the long winter. It only takes a great amount of patience and resilience. So yeah, bring it on.
Now I’d like to ask you a little favor: With all of these awesome moments I kept telling you, if one day you feel I’m slowly losing sight of the more important things in life, please slap me hard. Slap me on both sides. Please help me get back to my center. I’d never like to steer away from my principles. Remind me that the life I truly pray for is quiet, simple, filled with purpose, and aligned to what God planned for us from the start.
Okay back to work.
Have a great day, everyone. Sorry this was supposed to be published last night but I slept through it.